Oh my goodness . . . where is it going?
I know that I am getting older; that time seems to move faster as we get older.
Except for the fact that I talk to my kids about it and they ALSO agree that time is flying.
Let me tell you; time did NOT fly when I was their tender age. I will never forget the amazing sense of freedom walking out onto the little cement stoop in front of our home and tying my little tennis shoes and realizing I had the whole unplanned day before me! Breeze in my hair, breakfast in my belly – I was OFF!
Guess maybe I’ve been looking for that feeling ever since and have yet to recapture it. I know now I cannot in this lifetime. Though, I have tried to recapture it for my babes; to give them that sense of openness, and freedom and adventure.
And in that assignment, let’s be generous and give me a D+. Not only because they are different people than me, but it is an entirely different world. Hell, it’s an entirely different world than when I CONCEIVED these tiny beings.
Even though we really do resist electronics (my children are 14, 12 and 9 and I have not yet given into getting them a cellphone — though, fyi all you mammas out there – an ipod touch is about the same thing),. Even though our tv time is monitored (though I ponder daily canceling our cable – you get an hour of tv and you watched Cupcake Wars? Seriously???).
Even though we resist these ways of checking out, of stepping off, my small family still cannot seem to find the slow, deep natural heartbeat that belongs to Mamma Earth.
So I dig around for understanding — this Summer has been seriously vanishing; is it the fact I moved my business the beginning of May? My divorce and all that change? The fact that one is moving into high school next year (DID YOU HEAR THAT . . . HIGH SCHOOL . . . . ).
We never even got around to making our annual Summer 100 list; about the second week of June we talked about trying to do a Summer 50 list; at this point, the whole Summer is booked; seriously, stacked out.
Part of it is the early school start (August 20!); but part of it is the cycle.
An enormous amount of change is in the air; can you feel it? I’ve been talking about it for years.
Please re-read these blogs; they may help you through the cycle.
In the meantime – make yourself put everything down tonight and go watch the fireflies. Turn off the tv and play a game of chess with your beloved. Build a fire and roast some marshmallows.
This IS the calm before the storm (unless you live in Colorado); breathe . . . .